Wednesday, 17 November 2010

RP for XP

I'm not an educated writer. I'm not an educated anything. I don't have fancy diplomas that supposedly mean something. I'm self-educated in everything I do, from writing to drawing. I'm guided by friends and family and the connections that I have. But I'm just your average highschool graduate, ergo I am always learning.

However, I've been making up stories for as long as I can remember.

There's a habit I have that  began in childhood that I never grew out of which is at night, I would imagine characters in situations. When I was young it was usually characters from cartoons. I would imagine it until I eventually fell asleep. I still do this only now it's with original characters.

Like every typical child I played Imaginary Friends with the neighbourhood kids, acting out what our characters or alter-egos were doing. In truth, I never stopped playing.

Only now I call it "Writing".

In highschool I got into roleplaying which involved not only tabletop RPs, but also writing the stories down in binders and notebooks with other people. It involved no stats, rules or anything else. It was complete free-form story writing. Around that time I was also RPing on IRC and over ICQ and email.

The more I did this, the more my writing evolved. When looking back at old archived RPs, it's truly embarrassing. It's all very childish and attempting to be edgy and deep. At the time characters seemed tortured and angsty and when revisited, well, I just want to smack them. Hard.

But it's only RP, right? It doesn't mean anything...

A few months back, I got into a mild spat with a friend over the quality of writing in an RP we were writing. My character knew he was going to receive a lecture due to certain actions and he was not much in the mood for it, so he was rather apathetic and taciturn. His motivation being the sooner the lecturer vented, the sooner the whole experience would be over.

The other RPer commented that she wasn't "feeling" the scene, and I explained my character's motivation, pointing out that in the prose I had made it clear. She wanted to do it over anyway.

I said "It's just RP". This hurt her.

She pours everything she is in everything she writes, no matter what it is. She is constantly honing the craft. That's impressive.

To me, RP is relaxation, it's downtime. While I have to think, I don't have to polish, I don't have to revise, I don't have to pin any expectations on it.

Regardless I know that RP has taught me numerous valuable lessons about writing. I am always mindful of terms and language and dialect. I am always focused on things that the characters  would or would not say. Constantly I delete dialogue muttering "Dude, you wouldn't talk like that, you don't know words like 'vernacular'."or "Dude, you don't say 'dude'."

Where I know RP aided me the most is characterization. The ability to get inside the spark of an idea and create a multi-dimensional entity with flaws and faults and unique quirks is amazing.

What I said to my friend isn't really fair. RP has at one time or another made me run the whole gamut of emotions. I've cried when characters die, I react in disbelief when a character does or reveals something unexpected. I laugh at their idiocy or the heart warming moments.

There is validity in just writing, in talking to yourself, in playing pretend.

All fiction comes from an idea, the source of the idea is irrelevant.
Sit down.
It's ok.

Next up: Fanfiction!

Thursday, 14 October 2010

Fuck you she's awesome!

So, there's this flowchart going around which reduces almost any female into a trope or stereotype. Wonderfully developed flawed characters like Azula (Girl Hitler) and Sarah Connor (Mama Bear).

I'm not going to link to it, if you really want to find it, you will, trust me.

So, I'm just going to do the Fuck you, she's awesome meme.

Give me a female character and I will tell you why she is awesome. It might be a ficlet, or some meta, or a list or whatever.

Things I am familiar with: Avatar: TLA, Silent Hill, REPO! The Genetic Opera, X-Men, Sailor Moon, Muppets, Poison Elves, Hellsing, Boogiepop Phantom, Darkwing Duck, Gargoyles, Devil Hunter Yohko, Shikabane Hime, Higurashi, AEon Fluxx, The Maxx, She-Ra.

Speaking of She-Ra, Thundercats was on TV the other day. I remember loving Thundercats when I was little. Unfortunately watching it the other day...the production values were so painfully low I actually got embarrassed watching it. Though I still watch the Beetlejuice Cartoon, as well as The Raccoons on occasion. Also, sometimes I'll hunt down old episodes of Jem on Youtube and I can watch that too. But Thundercats...I feel somehow...cheated. Like my childhood was a lie. A LIE!

Monday, 20 September 2010

D&D Online

As you've probably gathered from FRIENDS 4 EVER!!!!, I like MMORPGs, especially if they're free.
So at the behest of a friend I re-started DDO. Come play with me.

I'm a level 2 rogue on the served that starts with "TH". My name is Phelz. Come find me.

Friday, 17 September 2010

New blog layout.

Yeah, I bit the bullet and installed a new layout for my blog. It's ok, I like it, I just don't like it as much as I adored Disconnected. That layout was beautiful.

Unfortunately it was also old and all my custom widgets kept vanishing, hence why the sidebar always reset itself, so I had to get a new layout, I had no choice. We'll all get used to it.

Writing is slow going and I'm not sure why. Blood in the Water is almost finished but at the same time, I'm just not feeling it. It's falling flat. The strange thing is that maybe that's the point. Maybe the point is that no matter what the characters do, it doesn't matter. I don't know, the ending feels both forced and glossed over. Strange, huh? Maybe I should just shelve it. This would be the second time I've shelved a story with these specific characters.

On the other hand, Next to Godliness is going good. Slow, but good. It just keeps rolling on and on in it's merry way, being all "Look at the cluster-crap of the Gods!", though I still haven't decided on the Big Bad for NtG, not entirely. However, I'm proud of what I'm weaving out of it and how much I've researched for it. There's sure to be a little something for everybody. I'm positive it's going to be much larger than it was originally meant to be.

Finally, there's Amethyst Breed. Not much to say there because it too, is slow going. Sometimes things are just contrived, and that's ok. I don't really have any thoughts concerning this project.

I got a new set of business cards for this site, and a new printer. I should, in theory, start doing the local convention scene soon and sell some prints or maybe some short stories or two, a little chapbook about Necropolis maybe? That could be interesting.

I recently got into Marvel comics again. I re-read the first 4 volumes of Runaways and it's interesting the things you either pick up on a re-read. Like Karolina for one. Karolina is a sledgehammer. Whereas Gert and Chase seem less..apparent. Which is sad because I love the idea of those two together but in practice it just seemed kind of..."because we said so." I still love the series though, and got someone to read it. Turns out it's the first comic book to ever grab her interest.

I also re-read some of The Darkness, or tried to. It was difficult and I just ended up skimming and playing the video game again instead.

So, that's what I've been up to.

Wednesday, 4 August 2010

Absolute Write Blog Chain - One colour.

Yep, time for August's Absolute Write blog chain. This month? If you had to pick one color, and one color only, for an aspect of your writing, which one would it be and why?

The person before me was Semmie and the one after me is CScottMorris

So, what colour do I ascribe to my writing?


Good night everybody!

I'm kidding

Leaving aside that my favorite colour is grey and my favorite time of day is dusk, my favorite season is fall and I love the rain, my writing is grey.

Everything I write seems to be riddled with despair and bleak situations: murder, abandonment, loss of faith, loss of love, emotional manipulation, hunter versus hunted and all those fun things.

I'm not a happy storyteller, where's the fun in that? Mine don't ride off into the sunset, I don't paint in sunset. I paint in muted colours.  Ash, beige, grey.

Not black, not really, black lacks depth and detail. Grey has shades and lights and other aspects to it, no matter how utterly depressing the final product turns out to be in the end.

Aheïla: and direct link to her post
Ralph_Pines: and direct link to her post
AuburnAssassin: an direct link to her post

Friday, 30 July 2010

30 days of music meme day 30!

Day 30 - Your favorite song at this time last year

Let's go with this one, because it inspired art in me.

Yep, so we're done folks, but you know what? I'm going to challange myself. I'm gonna do all 30 again, right now.
But only with Alice Cooper songs.

Thursday, 29 July 2010

30 days of music meme day 29

Day 29 - A song from your childhood

Yep. Suck it, The Last Unicorn!

30 days of music meme day 28

Day 28 - A song that makes you feel guilty
Guilty? Umm. Hm.
I can't think of a suitable answer for this one at all.
Oh, wait!

Do you have any idea what it's like to be a Type O Negative fan and not like this song? Do you? If you don't like it you're a BAD TON fan! Bad Fan! Don't you know Peter Steele just Died?! Dance morosely damn it! HARDER!

Wednesday, 28 July 2010

30 days of music meme day 27

Day 27 - A song that you wish you could play

I don't even like Nine Inch Nails!

Tuesday, 27 July 2010

30 days of music meme day 26

Day 26 - A song that you can play on an instrument
The only instrument I can use is my voice. So, I can sing...songs.
Here's a song I grew up with. If you also grew up with it, you and I are part of an elite group of awesomeness.

Monday, 26 July 2010

30 days of music meme day 25

Day 25 - A song that makes you laugh

More Vestibules! Behold an AMV I made.

Saturday, 24 July 2010

30 days of music meme day 24

Day 24 - A song that you want to play at your funeral

We're almost done, folks!
I know I mentioned this song on LJ, but here it is again. It's a very inspiring song, but the vocals make it sound very brooding and hopeless. That's me alright, masked optimism.

Friday, 23 July 2010

30 days of music meme day 23

Day 23 - A song that you want to play at your wedding
Screw weddings.

Buuut in my more innocent, less jaded days, I had two songs that were totally wedding songs in my

The first one

And the second one

Mine would be an interesting wedding...

Thursday, 22 July 2010

30 days of music meme day 22

Day 22 - A song that you listen to when you’re sad

I don't want to get into the reasons why.

Wednesday, 21 July 2010

30 days of music meme day 21

Day 21 - A song that you listen to when you’re happy
I think it's time for some Juice Pigs, don't you?

Also, some Vestibules!

Take that, Metal By Numbers!

Tuesday, 20 July 2010

30 days of music meme day 20

Day 20 - A song that you listen to when you’re angry
I almost picked Trash by KoRn and then I decided KoRn is silly.

I'm having a tough time deciding this one...So, I'll just go with ...

or...Nick Cave - The Mercy Seat. Sorry, embedding was disabled.

30 days of music meme days 18 & 19

I was very busy yesterday and I forgot about the Meme until after midnight, so here we are...

Day 18 - A song that you wish you heard on the radio
Conjure One (Featuring POE) - Center of the Sun. I love this song and I think it would be great if exposed to a wider audience.

Day 19 - A song from your favorite album

Sunday, 18 July 2010

30 days of music meme day 17

Day 17 - A song that you hear often on the radio
I don't listen to the radio anymore, and when I do it's classic rock stations.


Saturday, 17 July 2010

30 days of music meme day 16

Day 16 - A song that you used to love but now hate

I liked this song for the AMV embedded below, and the scene in Titan A.E., but I just heard it too much so now I hate it.
But this AMV is still cool, and reminds me of how bad-ass Sailor Moon was.

Friday, 16 July 2010

30 days of music meme day 15

Day 15 - A song that describes you
Again with REPO!
Genetic Emancipation is all about how the lead character copes with everything she knows to be...well, a lie. It's about how she can make her own choices and live her own life, regardless of her genes or her parentage.

Replace "parentage" with "health problems" and yeah, I feel ya, Shilo.

Yes, I relate to this song more than Infected, because, y'know, I'm not THAT bad off.

Other songs I considered were POE - Control, Weird Al - Everything You Know is Wrong and Alice Cooper - Is Anyone Home?

Thursday, 15 July 2010

30 days of music meme day 14

Day 14 - A song that no one would expect you to love

There's just this feeling of utter hopelessness buried in this song that I adore.

Wednesday, 14 July 2010

A dream I had about Elven Lacryment

Last night I dreamt that the first episode of Elven Lacryment was complete. However, it was an animated show!
The episode consisted of a tyrant king who had captured the leader of a group of freedom fighters. He puts the leader on display to show the masses that the king won and the rebels lost and we find out the leader is none other than ...Suicide. Suicide with a strange broad nose. Yeah, I dunno either.

Anyway, somehow Suicide gets free and rallies the rebels again just by virtue of being Suicide. It's odd because if anything, that's more Junker's story (but it's not, but it's similar anyway. Kinda, in the way Marvel and DC are similar...). I went to re-watch the episode and....

And then I woke up and was immediately sad because NO! I wanna go back to a place where Elven Lacryment is showing progress!

So the current thought is perhaps just bite the bullet and write it out and publish it as a web serial. It's a little disheartening because I want the visuals. I want people to see the story before them, not simply read it...


Day 13 - A song that is a guilty pleasure

I. Love. This. Song.
It's a perfect commentary to the shit that passes for music.

If you wanna hear the entirety of "Cry Tonight" try this.

Monday, 12 July 2010

30 Days of Music Meme day 12

Day 12 - A song from a band you hate
I'm a strong believer that any band or performer will have at least one song I like. I like the songs What I am and Stan by Eminem.
I like The Man that You Fear, Theatre, Coma White and The New Shit by Marilyn Manson.
I like Broken and Last Breath by Evanescence.
I like White Stripes' cover of Joleen.
I like Dragula and Living Dead girl.
I like Hystaria by Muse.
I like Push by Moist.
I like a few Tea Party songs.
I like Machine Head and Chemicals Between us by Bush.

Here's a song I don't like, by a band I don't like, I just find it freakin' hilarious.

Sunday, 11 July 2010

30 days of music meme day 11

Day 11 - A song from your favorite band
Huh, what? Oh, sorry, got distracted by Coop. I couldn't chose just one. Sorry. No I'm not, who are we kidding. BOW DOWN TO COOP!

The following video can be triggery and is NSFW. The best part is that he's performing with his daughter Calico. Best. Dad. Ever.

30 days of music memeday 10

Day 10 - A song that makes you fall asleep
Hey, look, we're in the double digits.

Oh dear, there are so many to chose from.
I've had to fall asleep to the weirdest things when sick, I've had to block out hospital sounds like other's snoring, machines, wailing... And you know what blocked it out the best?


Yes. I can fall asleep to Dethklok.

I'm more hard-core than you.

Saturday, 10 July 2010

30 days of music meme day 9

Day 09 - A song that you can dance to

I don't like to dance in public. I don't like watching others dance, it's just embarrassing for all involved.

However, eventually on our once-and-a-while clubbing trips, I finally got the girl-balls enough to dance.

And I danced to this...

Shut up.

Friday, 9 July 2010

30 days music meme day 8

Day 08 - A song that you know all the words to
Night Surgeon from REPO! The Genetic Opera.
Fun fact: If you have the subtitles on while watching the DVD, the subtitles are wrong. It says "Make your momma boil ya" but it's really "make your momma mourn ya"
The subtitles are also wrong during the song Thankless Job. It mentions Penis for some reason....

Thursday, 8 July 2010

30 days of music meme day 7

Day 07 - A song that reminds you of a certain event

This might sound like a cop-out but "Believe" by Nikki Yanofsky makes me think of, duh, the 2010 Olympics, which were basically in my back yard.

It was just such an epic few weeks,and it's actually what got me to watch Hockey (Yeah, I know, bad Canadian.)

We watched the opening ceramony in Massey Theatre, and my chair broke! But it was cool because yeah, it was a little lame but with so many other people, you couldn't help but feed off the energy and be very proud and think it was the best opening ever.

Every kid in my niece's elementary school knows this song by heart, it's neat.

Wednesday, 7 July 2010

30 days of music Meme day 6

Day 06 - A song that reminds of you of somewhere

Cranberries. Pretty much the entire No Need to Argue cassette. It reminds me of my old house. It reminds me of staying up untill 6am colouring and learning in Photoshop.
It reminds me of sitting in my bedroom on my first laptop, wedged nicely between my bed and the wall, with the summer sun setting in the window behind me while I wrote bad Marvel fanfiction. This is my favorite Cranberries song, so, enjoy.

Absolute Write July Blog Chain - Symbiotic Sympathy.

"I know why were here," he says as he places a short glass full of Pepsi with a shot or two of Crown Royal down in front of me. "You're trying to cast me in a sympathetic light because you joined that damn Absolute Write Blog Chain again. The person who tried this before, with their puppet was IrishAnnie, and the one after you will be Proach. This should be fun."

"That could be one way of looking at it," I say, swishing around my glass to the cubes make sweet little sounds. "Where should we begin?"

"Where indeed? You don't really expect this to be simple, do you? People are going to, are required to read this. You don't think I'm going to open the deepest part of my heart, or mind, or past or whatever you want to call it, to a flock of strangers?"

"Well, technically I could make you say whatever I want you too. I could make you talk about the time you rescued a litter of newborn kittens from a snow storm."

"Now who's the overbearing control freak, Q?" He says my moniker with contempt, because he knows my real name but he's kind enough not to say it, though he lords the fact over me.

"You are, NecroRaver." I answer with a similar tone to his. I know his name, but I'm kind enough not to say it. Then I drop the act and sigh. "C'mon. The sooner we get through this, the sooner we can do other things."

He relents. "Fine. So," he kicks his skinny legs onto his desk and slouches back in his chair. "Why me? Why not the Big Bad Villain in Elven Lacryment, or Blood in the Water? Why me?"

"Because you're the ultimate villain in my headspace, full stop. Very few of my characters that reside in the Q-niverse don't fear you. You're kind of transcendent."

NecroRaver smirks. "I'm touched. I expect that we're to re-tread old ground then, for the neophytes who are going to read this? Like I said, I'm not going spelunking into my deep, dark, chocolaty soul."

"You keep me alive."

"For the benefit of no one but myself and my city."

"But you still keep me alive, through all the surgery, the mania brought on by pain, the darker times, anger management, you keep me sane."

He steeples his fingers, the tips of his mechanical left hand look more talon-like than I'm used to. "Because you made me. I'm a creature of your creation, you're my version of God. You know my thoughts about God."

"We both want to punch God in the face sometimes." I agree. "Maybe we're our own pantheon. You're God to your followers, I'm your God in the Creationist sense because I made you. And I've treated you very well."

He tilts his head, miss-matched eyes flickering around the spacious, ornate office. "I can't argue with that. But if I may, I believe you're going about this whole post wrong. You're making vague reference to things no one who doesn't know us cares about."

"And your solution to that is...?"

"Maybe I'm not a creature worthy of sympathy, short of your self-centred points of view. But, maybe that's enough. Why should any readers care about me or what I do, what makes me tick? Sometimes an antagonist doesn't need to make his motivations clear."

"Everyone always wants to know the why."

"Do they? Amazing characters have often fallen aside once their past, generic or cliche as it turns out to be, is revealed. Maybe I just do what I do with no sense or remorse or wonder. Again, maybe I'm impossible to sympathize with."

"You're rambling," I point out as I take a slight interest in the fact that my ice cubes are melting.

"Lecturing," he corrrects me. "Would I really be what I am if I lent myself to sympathy? Not everyone can sympathize, and not everyone is capable of receiving it. Sometimes, there's no tragic doomed love, or abusive home-life, or poverty or murder. Sometimes a sociopath is merely a sociopath."


"You can show yourself out, Q. As for the reader, you have somewhere else to be."

CScottMorris: and direct link to his post
Aheïla: and direct link to her post
AuburnAssassin: and direct link to her post
DavidZahir: and direct link to his post
IrishAnnie: and direct link to her post
bri ness:
M.R.J. Le Blanc:
Fokker Aeroplanbau:
Amb The Creative:
Alpha Echo:

Tuesday, 6 July 2010

30 days of music meme day 5

Day 05 - A song that reminds you of someone

Oh, this one is hard.
I've been sitting here for 15 minutes trying to think of an answer to this question. All the answers I came up with were either too strange or redundant.

Finally I decided to bite the bullet and answer it thus:

Tenacious D - Tribute reminds me of my best friend Dopp.

Yeeeaaaaaars back, Dopp came up from Arizona for a visit. We listened to copious amounts of Tenacious D and Tribute, along with Jesus Ranch became his 'theme song' in my strange brain.

Sorry, embedding is disabled.

Monday, 5 July 2010

30 days of music meme day 4

Day 04 - A song that makes you sad

This one is a toss up between two songs. The first song is Desperado, by the Eagles.
The first time I remember hearing it, I was making a soundtrack for my father's wake. I just started sobbing and sobbing. After that, I couldn't listen to it for the longest time without getting teary-eyed.

The first time I was able to listen to it without crying, it came on the radio while in a friend's mother's car.


The second one is a A Boy and this Frog, a Jim Henson tribute song by Tom Smith. You might have heard about it in this Something*Positive strip. If this song does not make you cry, than you have no soul! When the robots are our masters and look like man, we will blast this song out like they did in Mars Attacks and use it to ferret out the androids from the people, I swear!

I still, STILL cannot listen to this song without tearing up, and tearing up BAD.

Saturday, 3 July 2010

30 days of music meme day 3

Day 03 - A song that makes you happy
This is my new feel-good song. IT'S SO CHIPPER!
You can't help but air drum and soft shoe to it, even if you have no rhythm what-so-ever.

30 Day of music meme Day 2

Day 02 - Your least favorite song
The song below, I hate so much that I won't even embed it. I won't even link it.
I hate this song so much that I would rather go see Coldplay live then listen to this song.
I'd rather listen to a mix-tape of bad 80's pop music than this song.
I'd rather listen to Raffi, Barney and Lamb Chop over and over and over and over for a WEEK then listen to this song.
I'd rather watch 24 hours of rap music videos on Much Music than listen to this song.

This song literally gives me a headache and makes me nauseous.

And that song is...

Fat Boy Slim - Praise you.

Thursday, 1 July 2010

Yeah, 30 days of music meme

I'm gonna do the 30 days of music meme. Hang on for an annoying, redundant ride.
Day 01 - Your favorite song
This is hard. I like so many songs. But Haunted, by POE has been on the top of my list for a few years now so I guess that's my answer.

Here's an AMV I made with that song. POE- Haunted

Monday, 21 June 2010

"Excuse me, do you...?"

I dislike people. I can like a person, but people en-masse just rub me the wrong way. My friend Doppleganger rationalized it to me as such:
"People are stupid, to varying levels. You're stupid, I'm stupid, but some are just bread-is-an-animal stupid." (I might be paraphrasing.)

And the Splurd Crew have adopted the rational that "All people are stupid until they prove themselves to be not-people."

This isn't to say I'm mean or snotty to strangers, I believe in respect. I respect you, you respect me. You disrespect me, then I have lost any reason to respect you, so kindly flake off. But, initially, I practice respect.

So today I was waiting for my friend Hazel at Metrotown Mall when this guy comes up to me. He wasn't even subtle either, he was sort of idly sauntering in the obvious direction of Me-ness. He looked average, a tiny bit rotund, short, and maybe Philipino, not the stereotypical skinny, tall, bearded raver in the street. I kept an eye on him until he vanished from my line of sight because I am leery of people who saunter.

And then he popped out from behind me and said "excuse me."
"Yes?" I said.
"Do you have-" And I expect him to say 'a smoke?' or 'a light?' or 'the time?' but no it was not to be, he finished with "Back pain?"
"I'm sorry?" I asked.
"Do you have back pain?" he repeated. "I talk to people about their pain."
"Uh...huh." I answered, dubiously because I am small and sickly and weary of others by nature. "So you just go around asking people about their back pain?"
"Yeah, I lay my hands on the sick." He held his palms out. "And heal with the power of Jesus."
Then I started to laugh. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry."
"Oh, you my laugh and you may be in pain but Jesus loves you."
"Riiiight. Well, even if I was in pain, I'm not interested."
"Are you sure? Jesus doesn't want you to be in pain."
I shook my head and smirk. "Pain makes you stronger, dude."
He was about to mutter "Iiii dunno about that," as I walked off.

If he pursued it, I would have asked if Jesus could make my leg grow back.

Look, I know I look like an easy mark. I'm a 5'0, asymmetrical, shoulder hunched, hobbling pip-squeak snippet of a girl with an overly defencive and abrasive attitude. I look 10 years younger than I am. My shirt had the god Anubis on it and my pants had a Chinese dragon. Do those sound like the garments of a follower of the lord? Really?

The ultimate irony? The holy crap you gotta be kidding me the timing couldn't have been more perfect?
I had to get my artificial leg adjusted today.

Praise the lord for modern technology.

Thursday, 17 June 2010

Songs. Why not?

It's been forever since I did a video post, sharing crap I like and hoping you will too. So let's do it again, shall we?

Songs I'm currently into. You will enjoy them.

And an old favorite of mine...


Wednesday, 16 June 2010

Absolute Write June Blog Chain - a scene that describes your character.

We’re here again imaginary readers that I know I don’t have! Once more I participate in the Absolute Write Blog Chain. This month’s topic is Post a scene that describes or defines your main character’s attitude. The post before me is by Cowgirl Poet and the following one is by Littlebearz.

Last blog chain I delved into Necropolis and Project C and the one before that I prattled on and on about the characters of Amethyst Breed, this time let’s talk about Next to Godliness.

The premise of Next to Godliness involves someone going around murdering mythological beings of various pantheons. When the more powerful Gods like Odin and Zeus search for the murderer, they ask Anubis to get a confession through torture. He complies but it really needles at his conscience.

Anubis is my favourite mythological figure and if I could believe in him, I would worship him. Having said that, when I do die, I hope Anubis greets me. People often have delusions as they’re dying and I have mine all picked out.

My interpretation of Anubis is of a quiet, proud and respectful figure, an old soul who puts a lot of stock into the rites he created and performs. Most of his angst comes from the changing world and not knowing what that means to and for him.

In this scene, Anubis angst about the trial, coerced confessions, and his own existence.
Anubis slouched in his throne, keeping his eyes closed and ears clapped to the subtle murmurs of the spirits that inhabited his domain. He felt poorly, tired and ashamed of what he had done, of what they made him do. Anubis had desecrated the sacred rites and he was unsure what exactly that entailed. Did that mean the rites were moot? Were there ways to re-instate the holiness of his tools? Of the rite? Perhaps the time for such archaic rituals has long since passed. But if the old traditions no longer held any meaning, than did he too have no meaning? And if he had no meaning, did that mean he was going to become non-existent?

Was he doomed to die?

Anubis shuddered at the thought, sitting in fear of his own mortality for the first time that he could recall.

“I know what you’re thinking,” she said, walking to him under a blanket of stars that seemed so far away in his Underworld. “I made myself not think it. It’s much better that way.”

“Camazotz,” Anubis looked the lean bat-like goddess over and gave to her a nod in greeting. “I would ask if you have been well, but gathering from your comment, I suppose you have not.”

“No worse nor better than you, my dear friend,” she answered. “But do not tell the others. People perceive me in a certain way and I’d like to maintain that.”

“We can’t let them know that the Goddess of Sacrifice and Night has a heart, now can we?” Anubis said with a bitter tongue.


“This is going to get worse before it gets better, I assume.”

“I am not a prophet, my friend,” Camazotz said gently, folding her arms across herself and thereby cocooning her body in the thin membrane of her wings. “And without the Fates, there is no aim for anything I suspect.”

“Were you at the Trial?” Anubis asked, offering his clay carafe of wine to her.

“You looked so handsome,” she accepted the wine, dipping her blood-seeking tongue into the mouth of the jar. As she lapped up the drink, beads of wine burst on her taste buds and ran down her throat like veins as she swallowed, then she would dip her tongue back into the jug. “And yet so troubled.” She added between sips.

“Well then,” Anubis held out his hand for the jug. “Who do you suspect committed the deed?”

“I have my suspicions.”

The ridge over Anubis’ eye raised. “Mm?”

“Eris of course.”

“I imagine Athena already came to that conclusion and then dispelled it somehow.” Anubis took another pull of wine, wobbling slightly as he did so.

“Did you see Eris at the Trial?”

Anubis thought for a moment, eyes losing focus as the scene played itself in his memory. “Not that I can recall.” He answered, in a distant tone.

“While her absence does not automatically make her guilty, it does raise questions.”

“And more to the point,” Anubis said. “I haven’t the faintest clue what could kill a God, save for stagnation. But even then, we just sort of fade away into obscurity. We would not end up in our realms of Death.”

Camazotz observed him, the intense yet far away stare in his eyes, the way he was looking past the horizon and into nothing. “You are afraid.”

“And rightfully so.” Anubis asserted. To that, Camazotz gave a gentle exhale.

“My dear, beloved friend Anubis,” she said gently, taking his long muzzled face in her hands. His short fur was like silk to her sunken eyes. She once again took the wine from his hand, and put it’s opening to his mouth, letting the sweet, intoxicating drink slip down his throat and spill out his mouth and down his chest. “Everything will be as it will be. There is nothing any of us can do to slow or stop it. Yet in the end, we will prevail. We will win.”

She tilted his head downward slightly and unrolled her long tongue, stroking it affectionately down the ridge crown of Anubis’ skull from eyes to the nape of his neck.

Here is the list of participants to the June Blog Chain:
LadyMage: and direct link to her post
FreshHell: and direct link to her post
Collectonian: and direct link to her post
Aimee Laine: and direct link to her post
AuburnAssassin: and direct link to her post
Lyra Jean: and direct link to her post
Aheïla: and direct link to her post
ArcticFox: and direct link to her post
Fokker Aeroplanbau: and direct link to his post
Alpha Echo: and direct link to her post
xcomplex: and direct link to her post
CScottMorris: and direct link to his post
egoodlett: and direct link to her post
Lilain: and direct link to her post
defyalllogic: and direct link to her post
*RomanceWriter*: and direct link to her post
IrishAnnie: and direct link to her post
CowgirlPoet: and direct link to her post
(ME!) AnarchicQ:

Friday, 11 June 2010

About Books

Last book that you read: I'm currently reading Blindness, but the last book I finished reading was Keeping Faith by Jodi Pocoult. I liked it, probably my favorite of hers that I read, though I related to My Sister's Keeper more.

Last book that you bought: I purchased The Lovely Bones for my sister for Christmas. I read it after she did.

Last book that you disliked: Nineteen Minutes by Jodi Picoult. I couldn't feel sympathy for anyone, the relationships were forced and everyone was a weepy child or a lost, whiny adult. Jordan and his family was cool though.

Last book you read that made you excited about something: Umm...Let the Right One In. That is how a vampire love story should be written.

Last book that made you cry: Books don't make me cry, but I did cry while reading the final issue of The Maxx yeeeaaaars ago.

Last book that made you laugh, hard: DooM: Hell on Earth. It still wasn't as bad as the first book but...oh my.

Last book that you recommended to someone else: House of Leaves. Everyone needs to read this book.

Thursday, 27 May 2010

May AbsoluteWrite Blog Chain - The Soundtrack

This month’s AbsoluteWrite Blog chain question is What does your story/character(s) sound like?

This is the second time I’m taking part in the AbsoluteWrite blog chain. The post before me is by IrishAnnie and the one after me is Harri3tspy.

I have play-lists, sound-tracks or themesongs for almost every substantial character I write. I’ve been able to plot and choreograph scenes completely around a single song while managing to make the scene independent of the song. I think this comes from my experience as an AMV enthusiast and editor.

Sometimes a song is just so bloody perfect, I can’t help adopting it as a pet theme but it gets weird when characters latch on to songs that I myself despise, like when my whole clan of dark elves decided they liked Nine Inch Nails’ Closer. Or Moroi decided she liked Imaginary by Evanescence. Or anything to do with Marilyn Manson…

Me, being me, credit a lot of my inspiration to Alice Cooper, especially the Brutal Planet and Dragontown albums. 90 percent of those albums were direct influence for Necropolis alone. When I was first fleshing out NecroRaver and his city, dark, angsty Q was listening only to those two albums.

And then I was introduced to the music of Nick Cave and the character of NecroRaver exploded in bad-assery. (The fact Mr. Cave is a dead ringer for Necro only added fuel to the fire…)

Musically NecroRaver has grown into himself, choosing an ecclectic mix of classic rock, Eurosynth, epic, deathmetal…

See what I mean for yourself.
Depeche Mode: Personal Jesus
Depeche Mode: Blasphemus Rumours
Blind Guardian: Edge of Thorns
Clan of Xymox: Medicine
Neuroactive: Shrieks and sighs
Alice Cooper: Gimme
Alice Cooper: Sex, Death & Money
Alice Cooper: I just wanna be God
Cheap trick: I was Born to raise Hell
Covenent: Bullet
Emerson Lake & Palmer: Lucky Man
Billy Joel: Only the Good Die Young
Marilyn Manson: The Man that you Fear
Nick Cave: Hallelluja
Nick Cave: Loverman
Nick Cave: Bring it on
Covenent: Love, Crooked Love
Tea Party: Walking Wounded
David Bowie: Scary Monsters & Super Creeps
Type O Negative: Hey Peter (Or Nick Cave’s Hey Joe)
The Beatles: Piggies

Now, for various spoilery reasons I won’t get into Project C’s entire playlist but here are a select few songs from it.
Five Man Electrical Band: I’m a Stranger Here
SuperTramp: The Logical Song
A Perfect Circle: The Noose
Rob Dougan: Furious Angels
VNV Nation: Illusion
Supertramp: Child of Vision
SOAD: Chop Suey!

Strange mix there, huh?

At this time, I’d like to apologize for rambling on and on about NecroRaver, but he’s gaining a fan following and it’s making me giddy. I’m sorry.

The AW May Musical Blog Chain’s Fantabulous Links Are:
Stefanie Gaither:
Hayley E. Lavik:
Aimée Laine:
Alpha Echo:

Necropolis microfiction - Closure

NecroRaver let out a lazy sigh. "Yeah, that feels nice."
He was leaning back with his head between Ng's thighs, the curve of his skull pillowed sweetly on the mound of her clothed sex, though her skirt was hiked up to almost shameless levels. Her fingers worked NecroRaver's temples, pressing slow circles into the hollows flanking his brow. His body was laying outstreched along a couch, and a long firearm rested between his own skinny legs, like an obscene phallic symbol. It was polished and more importantly, it was loaded.

"Ng, did you know that there's nothing quite like staring down the scope of a sniper rifle?"

Ng smiled. "No sir, I didn't. But I can imagine. Sir?"

"Yes, Ng?"

"Why are you here? What are you doing here? Why tend to this matter yourself? Why not the faceless men, or MJ? That's why they're here."

NecroRaver looked at his target's back through the window. The man was working hard, as any good employee should. He was a newcomer and had never steered NecroRaver wrong. Indeed, he even created for his master a great gadget that helped him keep track of his city.

"He is a delicate case. He has access to sensitive information. I thought it wise to handle him myself. The fewer eyes, the better." NecroRaver purred as the massaging continued. Ng was good at her job. "You make it hard to stay awake." It was a compliment and Ng smiled.

So once again he focused his eye down the scope of the gun, catching his target in the cross-hairs. He pulled the trigger effortlessly, almost carelessly.

The sound of the bullet was reduced to a sigh as it shot from the silencer. The following ping of the bullet cracking through the glass almost seemed louder. NecroRaver didn't need the sight to see his target slouch and the laptop screen flicker and die.

"Well. That takes care of that." He'd have someone clean it up in a few hours.

(Written Oct 31st 2009. I was in a mood when I wrote this, the mood has since passed. NecroRaver always gets pissy around Hallowe'en.)

A little Necropolis crap

It was not often that NecroRaver left his domain on business. Usually he had a diplomat or messenger go in his place, but this was a delicate matter and he had something to fetch.

She had the looks typical of a spoiled heiress plus one tell-tale baby bump. Last he saw of her was nearly five months ago, when the deal was discussed and planted on promises and oral contracts.

"I heard that you pulled the plug on your father this morning," NecroRaver said to her while examining the drink bar. "Am I meant to give you my condolences or my congratulations?"

She dismissed the question. "How can I help you?" She asked, pulling out the chair behind her father's desk and making quite the show of simply sitting. Her stomach was full, but far from burdensome and NecroRaver felt that her dramatics were too thick.

"In December you came to me with an offer. Your father and I were in negotiations of a buy-out of Hellstrom Enterprises and all associated assets. And then you came along, his long lost daughter."

"I am his daughter, tests prove that."

"Oh, I'm not disputing that, Victoria, you have Victor's eyes."

"You were looking at my father's eyes?" She scoffed. "Queer."

NecroRaver ignored the slight on his sexuality. "It is very important to be able to read one's intent when negotiating. Eyes can be very honest."

She looked bored.

"So you came along, and my dealings with Victor were frozen. After all, now he had someone to leave his legacy too after he was gone. Your father was diagnosed with his illness, his will drawn anew, leaving all to you. And rightfully so."

"...and?" Victoria prompted.

"And then, before the ink was even dry on the document, you came to me and promised me all of his assets, for one weekend with me."

She smiled. She had a camera-practised smile, fake and symmetrical. "I remember. It was a great weekend. Couch. Desk. We started on your desk, right?"

He chuckled. "My maids were furious at the mess."

She laughed, too. "I'll bet."

NecroRaver's laughter ceased. "And now that he's dead, I've come to retrieve what's mine."

"Ohh...Oh, I see. Of course." Victoria rose to her swollen feet and walked over to her purse. After rummaging within it for a moment, she pulled out a key ring. She walked to a portrait of the late Victor Hellstrom Jr., and swung it to the side like an opening door. Behind the painting was a safe. Victoria took hold of dial and spun out the numbers to unlock it. Opening it, she pulled out a safety deposit box. A key from the ring unlocked the box and she tossed a small digital pad NecroRaver's way.

NecroRaver caught the pad and turned it on.

"All the contacts, passwords, addresses and hard numbers are on that thing. And the safe's combo is my birthday."

"Thank you, that's helpful. I'll show myself out." He turned to go.

"Enjoy it while you can," she said as she took her seat once again behind her father's desk. "You have about...oh, five months?"

NecroRaver turned to look at Victoria. "What makes you say that?"

"Oh, well. Hellstroms take family very seriously. I mean, I know that you're even more well off than daddy was, so, like, I had you fuck me so I'd get pregnant with your kid. When you die, I get all your stuff too."

He looked her in the eye, she was telling the truth. "You're certain it's mine?"

"Yes. I planned it, even stopped drinking, smoking and dating, just to make sure it could only be yours."

NecroRaver smoothed out his dress shirt with a hand. "Hn. Good plan. Good plan, I mean that." Idly he walked back to the bar and plucked up an olive from a bowl, tossing it into his mouth. "It required planning, timing," he gestured to her body. "obvious sacrifice of your looks, leisure. And it's devious, too."

"Yep." Victoria leaned back, weaving her fingers together and resting her palms on her belly. "I think the first thing I'll do once I inherit your town is rename it. Necropolis is so..." She hesitated, searching for an appropriate word. "Old sounding." The folly of youth, to imply that old is an insult. "Do you want to know what else I'd do?"

"I'm sure you've thought long and hard about it. Planned out every little street sign. But there's one problem. The child isn't mine."

"I already said-..."

"I know what you said."

"Than what makes you so sure that it's not yours?"

"What makes you so certain that it is mine?"

"Because I-...I timed it. My time and-..."


"And it's yours, you dick! This bastard's yours and you better get used to it."

NecroRaver ran a hand through his long black hair. "It's not mine."

Victoria softened and stood from her father's chair. She walked over to NecroRaver, her fingers gliding over the polished ivory of Victor's desk. "Denial is natural. If you want proof, we can test him after he's born." She took NecroRaver's hand, the one made of flesh and not metal, and placed it on the curve of her belly.


"Or she. And then you can know he's yours. We could even get married and be a family, if those sorts of things are important to you. NecroRaver, I don't want any bad blood between us."

"Well," NecroRaver drummed his fingers against Victoria's stomach in idle thought. "You've seem to have accounted for everything. But it's not mine." He gave a toothy, arrogant smile, his silver fangs flashing against the sunset colours of Victoria's eyes.

She threw his hand from her stomach, furious and childishly impudent in the shadow of NecroRaver's refusal of fatherly responsibilities. "It is. Gimme one good reason why it's not."

"Because, my dear. God knew that having one of me was trouble enough. If he gave me the ability to breed, all Hell would break loose. He saw fit to neuter this dog long before it's time." He enjoyed watching her jaw drop, relishing the sight and taking a mental picture before heading out the door.

"I suggest you name the child after your father. Victor was a good man. Oh, and..." He pulled the door open farther, holding it wide. "You and your bastard, get the hell out of my office."

(June 7th 2009)

Wednesday, 26 May 2010

Character Meme

My excuse is that meme's help one develop one's characters.


- Add some of your own questions… Should be interesting to see it expand into ridiculous proportions! XD
- If you don’t have at least 8 OCs I wouldn’t recommend this meme.
- And of COURSE have fun!

1) First list all of your OC’s so we can see your list of all your wonderful OC’s (Uh, yeah, no. I'm limiting it to 10, thanks.)

1: NecroRaver
2: Algol
3: ShadowWolf
4: Drow
5: Ehren
6: Hecate
7: Esiila
8: Ng
9: Suicide
10: Issues

2) Who is your favorite OC?
Oh, that's not fair! But it's a tie between NecroRaver and ShadowWolf. Necro is fun, and ShadowWolf has prestige in my head. She's not awesome or anything but she was one of my first OCs so that gains a special spot.

3) Who is your least favorite?
From the list...I can't pick one from the list. I just can't. So, my least favourite OC is maybe Staggar Lee. She just never really became developed and is rather shallow.

4) Who is your most developed?
NecroRaver has a lot of background, but I think surprisingly my most developed is Drow. Stop laughing, I really think he is. Yes, he's a shallow, womanizing dick but he has been known to go above and beyond for his friends, to the point where his friends are like "". I recently decided Drow would probably lay down his life for Algol, but Algol would not lay his life down for Drow.

5) Which OC would you want to date if they magically came to life?
Ehren! I'd totally date Ehren. We have a lot in common, from deformities, to clothing tastes. And he likes broken people like me.

6) How many girl OCs do you have? Boy OCs? It OCs?
I don't know. I think I have a slight number more of boys but all my boys seem to have a harem following them around, so that can't be right.

7) If you were stuck in a burning building what do you think the third OC on your list would do?
If ShadowWolf were with me, she would break us out. If I was in there and she wasn't, she would totally let me burn unless my safety was important to her mission.

8) Name one thing you regret about one of your OCs.
I wish ShadowWolf wasn't so derivative. I've changed a lot about her but it still doesn't seem like enough.

9) Which of your OCs do you think would make the best father/mother/it parent out of all your OCs and why??
Algol or Ehren, for sure. Ehren's a little too selfish and Algol's a little too much of a loner so it's really a toss up. But it's one of those two.

10) Which of your OCs do you think will most likely be put in jail?
Necro should be sentenced for life without parole. But he's a slippery thing.

11) The eighth of your OCs was put into the future! What will their job be?!?
oh, she'd still be a pimp! She's pimp the hell out of the future.

12) Name the first OC’s catch phrase!
"I am not a happy puppy." "No.", "FFFFF!!!"

13) Do all your OCs live together or are they separated?
Algol, Hecate and Esiila live together, Ng lives in Necropolis which is run by NecroRaver, Issues, ShadowWolf and Suicide are questing together, Drow lives alone in his apartment, Ehren lives alone.

14) Are there any pairings that are in your OC list?
No one on that list is paired up with anyone else on that list. However, they are paired up with either other people's characters or some other characters of mine.

15) Your seventh OC switched bodies with you for a day! How will they react at the end of the day?
Hah! She might think it's a slight improvement. At least I look human. Unfortunately I don't have the grace she has. If I had her body I'd enjoy the grace and the two legs. And I'd totally play with her powers.

16) Your last OC just became a fifteen year old. What do they do?
Issues would just...sigh. There are worse things that could happen.

17) Now randomly select a person on your OC list. Who was it?

18) That OC you just chose? Yeah… they think they are superman (even if they are a girl) and are on the roof about to jump off.
He would, too, probably trying to impress some woman. Luckily he's half demon so he'd at least survive. It would just hurt. But he'd heal.

19) Are any of your OCs bored of this meme?
Suicide wants me to talk about him more.

20) Would your second OC prefer the beach or the mountains?
Mountains. The beach means sun, and the sun means death.

21) Would your tenth OC battle a shark?
He's fought worse.

22) Which OCs hate each other?
Everyone either hates or is afraid of NecroRaver, except for ShadowWolf and Ng.

23) Which OC did you create first? And last?
First: ShadowWolf was created when I was 17
Last: On this list? Ng.

25) And if those two were fighting, who would win?
ShadowWolf, easily. Even if you disregard the fact ShadowWolf is a sneaky dirty fighter with a sword and shadowmanipulation, Ng's weapons are her words and ShadowWolf never listens.

26) Are your OCs fat or skinny?
Skinny except for one or two.

27) What are your first 2 OC's favorite foods?
NecroRaver: Chocolate Mousse
Algol: Heats covered in BBQ sauce.

28) If your listed OCs were in a fight to the death, who would emerge victorious?
Algol, though Suicide would be the hardest for him to take out.

29) There's a zombie attack and your OCs are stranded. Who do they elect to be their leader?
Esiila. She looks like a zombie but is sneaky and cunning.

30) During said zombie attack, who's the first to die?
Ng, she's human and not a fighter, besides, she'd probably try to defend NecroRaver.

31) Three and Six are stranded on a boat in the middle of the ocean and they're running out of food! Would they tough it out and feed on fish and seagulls, end up eating each other, etc.?
ShadowWolf could get fish and birds because she usually lives off the land. if the sun doesn't get Hecate, fish and birds work just fine.

32)If 2, 4 9, 10, and went out for a fun night on the town, what would happen?
Algol, Drow, Suicide and Issues go to a club! Issues is very out of his element and Suicide wanders off to probably go find some action. Algol and Drow however probably weasel their way on stage and make the place rock.

33) What would you say is eight’s biggest flaw?
She likes pretty, shiny, expensive things, which makes things in a run down slum kind of hard to acquire.

34) Name four’s greatest strength or special ability.
His musical ability. He has actual talent and skill which proves that he's not a good for nothing slacker.

35) If six was a real animal, what would he/she be? (Or if they’re already a real animal, what sort of mythological animal would they be?)
A wolf. She was originally a vampire-werewolf hybrid, then a Gangrel so she's dog-like.

36) Name one’s most distinguishing characteristic.
I read that as 'disgusting' at first. His mechanical arm, obviously. I remember one of his earliest fans loved the arm because he was used to seeing big hulking cybernetic arms and not as minimalist as Necro's.

37) What would three do if he/she suddenly changed their sex?
She'd...or he'd...? Actually find it to be an advantage because men are stronger than women (in her mind.) and most people take men more seriously. Also the orcs are looking for a female....

38) What is two’s worst memory?
Saying goodbye to his wife. Even though he's found love with two other women since, he's never going to forget his first love.

39) The planet has flooded and turned into one big ocean. Would one drown or adapt?
He'd pass Necropolis off to someone else then OD because once he's dead, he doesn't have to worry. Enjoy the inheritance, whoever!

40) Five finds themselves back in the biblical age. What would he/she do?
"...What do I do now?!"

41) What's number nine's favourite song?
Wasted by Stabbing Westward.

Thursday, 20 May 2010

Movie Review: Gamer

For my birthday, my friend came over with alcohol and we watched Gamer.
What to say, what to say? It was definitely a shut-your-brain-off-and-enjoy movie. At one point I said "This is going to be one of those movies you watch and forget about it an hour later." How right were we.

So, it was sub-par predictable crap with Ludacris doing his best Max Headroom impression. As I mentioned, there was alcohol. About half-way through the movie we decided to play a drinking game. We decided to drink whenever...
  • there were boobs/sex
    The 'fat guy' was on screen
    there was an explosion
    someone swore.
    There was violence

  • Within 5 minutes we both began to feel ill from the amount of continuous drinking.

    And what's really sad? I remember a mid 90's cartoon called Spicy City that did it better (Links not safe for work.).

    Not a very good movie. Too predictable, too derivative.

    Thursday, 15 April 2010

    AbsoluteWrite April Blog Chain: What would it be like to meet your novel characters?

    Hello all, this is my first time participating in the Absolute Write blog chain. The subject: What would it be like to meet your novel's characters.
    As this is a chain, I am but a link (How pretentious sounding of me, eh?). The link before me is Aimee Laine and the one after me is Breddings.

    My characters and I are very close. They're each a part of me. ShadowWolf is my stoic perseverance, Drow is my ego, and NecroRaver is all the dark stuff in my head. I talk to and with them and sometimes they talk to people who aren't me. Especially Drow, he's strangely independent.

    But what if I met one of them, face to face, flesh and blood? This was a hard question for me to answer at first because I have over 100 characters and not all of them are for my novels.

    I've chosen the characters of Amethyst Breed due to the fact that I've been working on it over the last few days.

    [caption id="" align="alignleft" width="300" caption="Jayne Doe"]Jayne Doe[/caption]

    One of the characters is a shape shifter named Jayne Doe. Jayne was created to look like a typical roswell grey alien, but punk. It's funny because I actually have a phobia of grey aliens, they freak me out. Sometimes I wonder what's freakier: if the alien stares at you unblinking, or if they do indeed blink, thus proving that they can move and therefore go after you. Oddly, the other night I managed to watch Fire in the Sky again, and then a documentary about Hanger 18 and Roswell. Both were watched without flinching. I'm cured!
    But anyway, back to Jayne.

    If I met Jayne in real life, the initial reaction would be fear considering my phobia. Once she managed to calm me down I think we'd get along nicely. We'd have scads to talk about, we both know we're weird and embrace the freakish persona because hey, if you're weird you might as well go all out. Jayne has a friendly disposition and a good sense of humour. We would go clothes shopping and she would make me a pair of pants and some arm warmers because that's how she rolls. Anyone can find a true friend in Jayne.

    If I met Syrin, we would discuss comic books for hours like stupid little fangirls. When we were done with that we would ponder the awesomeness of Dethklok. And she seems so mild mannered, too.

    [caption id="attachment_102" align="alignright" width="213" caption="Ehren"]Ehren[/caption]

    Then there's Ehren. Meeting Ehren would be interesting. We both have stumps instead of feet (Ok, so I have one foot, at least.) but I've learned with my time as an amputee that the only people who 'get it' are other amputees. I'd be curious to learn how Ehren walked on his stumps, what the pressure of his body on such a small surface area felt like, blisters and things like that.

    I haven't talked about the antagonist yet! If I met her I would probably lose all bladder control. In my mind she moves like a Tool stop-motion video, yet another thing that freaks me out. I would run from her, you know, if I could run...

    Maybe Amethyst Breed is some sort of catharsis for me?

    Ok, I submit. It doesn't seem right to make this post without at least nodding to Project C so I will.
    If I met the protagonist of Project C, I'd simply hug him really, really tight. I wouldn't say anything I don't think, he wouldn't care if I did anyway. I'd just hug him because as an entity, he's brought me a lot. It was his story that really got me off my ass to try my hand at serious writing and pursuit of publication. It was his story that distracted me while I was bed ridden and in pain. He inspired me and helped me prove to myself that I can actually finish something and have a worthwhile goal. I expect I sound like a complete virgin writer, which I am, but it's all true. I wrote to get his world out there and I owe him a lot. So if I met him, I would hug him.

    And then he'd probably yell at me for the Hell I put him through, that is if he realizes that I am, in fact, his god.

    The AW April Blog Chain
    Forbidden Snowflake:

    Friday, 2 April 2010

    Yes, I Do Quizzes, toome

    Found via Furikku on LJ

    1. Tell us about your favorite writing project/universe that you've worked with and why.
    Project C. It's speculative fiction in a post-apocalyptic world. I got to build an entire world but also drop in bits and peices from some of my existing projects.

    2. How many characters do you have? Do you prefer males or females?
    At last count there were about 112, but that was before I started Blood in the Water and I didn't include Next to Godliness. I think I tend to create males. I don't know why.

    3. How do you come up with names, for characters (and for places if you're writing about fictional places)?
    Sometimes the characters tell me their names (NecroRaver, Suicide, Issues of Pylon, for some examples.) and sometimes I completely thrust a name upon them. (Craft, QXVII.)

    I try to at least make the names appropriate to the setting, so no medieval characters would be named something like Tsuki or anything.

    With NecroRaver, the first thing I knew about him was his name and I worked up from there. Suicide and Issues were cases of "I want a character named ______."

    4. Tell us about one of your first stories/characters!
    My neighbours and I would play together and there was one game we used to play where we were demons and another neighbour was God (Therefore he had ALL our powers.) We were bipedal wolves with goat horns and bat wings. One of us had fire, one of us had lightning powers, water powers, and one had "TV Powers" which basically meant she could pause, stop, rewind and fastforward time and objects.

    I had shadow teleportation powers and I was black and red. My name was Shadow. I miss being a kid.

    My first actual original character was ShadowWolf, an outgrowth of Shadow and now a central character of Elven Lacryment.
    She was my D&D character and about as Mary-Sue as you could get. She's still rather Sue-ish but I stripped a lot of that away, which shows how bad she really was.

    I've had characters before her and Shadow of course, but they were all ganked from TV and movies, which I guess contributes to my being a fanfiction writer.

    5. By age, who is your youngest character? Oldest? How about “youngest” and “oldest” in terms of when you created them?

    By age I'd have to say Katie from The Amethyst Breed. She's 14. Katie is also the newest character of mine. I made her about a week ago. My oldest character is Algol Bedlam, vampire who's older than Jesus Christ. The character I've had the longest is Otis/Growl. He was a snake which had a rattle, a cobra hood, diamonds on his back and every single poison. I've made him into a lizard, changed his name to Growl and gave him to my character Moroi.

    6. Where are you most comfortable writing? At what time of day? Computer or good ol' pen and paper?
    My room, on my couch on my laptop.

    7. Do you listen to music while you write? What kind? Are there any songs you like to relate/apply to your characters?
    I have whole playlists dedicated to stories and characters. NecroRaver gets Nick Cave, epic songs and Covenant, Suicide gets Korn and Stabbing Westward, ShadowWolf gets Drain STH. You can see some of the playlists on my Grooveshark account

    8. What's your favorite genre to write? To read?

    Post-apocalyptic dystopia! I like to read fiction, horror and biography, but not high-fantasy or sci-fi unless it's simple or Marvel comics related. I don't know why that is because I used to read the Pern novels and the Dealing with Dragons series and then I just sort of stopped reading high-fantasy. Oh well.

    9. How do you get ideas for your characters? Describe the process of creating them.
    It's different for each character. Some are necessary creations (I need an antagonist/D&D character/Plot device/Narrator) and some just happen and enforce themselves on me.

    But let's say I needed a new character. Let's use Katie as an example because she's new. I started with her purpose, then the design, attitude, then finally name. Her backstory came part and parcel with her attitude.

    10. What are some really weird situations your characters have been in? Everything from serious canon scenes to meme questions counts!
    Once Suicide turned into a woman from eating enchanted chocolate. Bras and cramps SUCK.
    Once Drow went to something like Silent Hill. It screwed up his head for a while, he was actually abstaining from women a while after that.

    11. Who is your favorite character to write? Least favorite?
    NecroRaver is fun. Evil and fun. Drow is also fun. My least favorite is probably Phantasmagoria because his brain is just... askew.

    12. In what story did you feel you did the best job of worldbuilding? Any side-notes on it you'd like to share?
    Necropolis.It's sort of Vancouver meets LA meets Gotham City meets Silent Hill. A lot of it is thanks to Shoepixie. She's contributed many ideas, factions, citizens, even holidays!
    But the framework of Necropolis is all me. Me and music.

    13. What's your favorite culture to write, fictional or not?

    14. How do you map out locations, if needed? Do you have any to show us?
    I map them out in my head and then I draw it on paper. I suck at maps though.

    15. Midway question! Tell us about a writer you admire, whether professional or not!
    Drew Hayes of Poison Elves, Sam Kieth of The Maxx, Ojo, Zero Girl, Warren Ellis thanks to Transmetropolitan, Alan Moore for his contribution on The Maxx (yes), Mark Z. Danielwsky for HOUSE of Leaves, even if I cannot for the life of me read Only Revolutions. POE is a great lyricist. Alice Cooper, Nick Cave and whoever writes Rishloo's songs.

    16. Do you write romantic relationships? How do you do with those, and how “far” are you willing to go in your writing? ;)
    Once upon a time I promised myself that the first thing I wrote would not have a romantic subplot. I broke my own promise. Oh well.

    I tend to fade to black or have something interrupt or distract whoever's about to get it on. Because I am a tease.

    17. Favorite protagonist and why!
    Um. Hm. ShadowWolf because she has a special place to me. But her aside, the protagonist of Project C because he was a character born out of purpose, to tell a story, not just a character made because it would be a cool idea.

    18. Favorite antagonist and why!
    NecroRaver. Because he's NecroRaver.

    19. Favorite minor that decided to shove himself into the spotlight and why!
    Either NecroRaver or Suicide. Necro started as a bit character and Suicide Suicide. He sort of inserted himself into Elven Lacryment.

    20. What are your favorite character interactions to write?
    Algol and Drow play off eachother nicely. I've been contemplating doing more comics with those two.

    21. Do any of your characters have children? How well do you write them?
    Some of them do. I can't tell you who because that's just spoiler territory.

    22. Tell us about one scene between your characters that you've never written or told anyone about before! Serious or not.

    Algol: *hands Drow a book* Here, read this.
    Drow: *Reads the cover* ...House of Leaves...
    *One week later*
    *A book flies towards Algol's head*
    Drow: *Off-panel* WHAT THE FUCK?!

    23. How long does it usually take you to complete an entire story—from planning to writing to posting (if you post your work)?
    Depends. Fan-fic usually takes a day to a week. Project C took months and months and it's still not done, but the first draft took about 4 months.

    24. How willing are you to kill your characters if the plot so demands it? What's the most interesting way you've killed someone?
    I'm very Rocks Fall Everyone Dies. Death happens. I think betrayal is worse than death.

    The most interesting way I've killed someone will be the penultimate scene in Elven Lacryment.

    25. Do any of your characters have pets? Tell us about them.
    ShadowWolf has Xanther, her wolf companion but he's not really a pet.
    Dameon Silverskull has a vulture.
    Suicide used to have a horse.

    26. Let's talk art! Do you draw your characters? Do others draw them? Pick one of your OCs and post your favorite picture of him!

    27. Along similar lines, do appearances play a big role in your stories? Tell us about them, or if not, how you go about designing your characters.
    I hate that people hate Obligatory Paragraphs of Description. But to me, character design is very important. Not only are my own creations important to me but I like to know what other characters look like. If your story has a lot of characters, I would like some defining characteristics other than a name.

    28. Have you ever written a character with physical or mental disabilities? Describe them, and if there's nothing major to speak of, tell us a few smaller ones.
    Issues is mute, due to torture.
    Moroi is paranoid schizophrenic.
    NecroRaver is an arm amputee.
    Gideon is a double leg amputee.
    Ehren Manus has no feet.

    29. How often do you think about writing? Ever come across something IRL that reminds you of your story/characters?
    Always. A music video, a book. Once I saw a guy at a club who looked a lot like NecroRaver. That same night I also saw a Suicide. It was surreal.

    30. Final question! Tag someone! And tell us what you like about that person as a writer and/or about one of his/her characters!
    I suggest all the writers reading this do it too.

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